Ha ha ha If you have a chronic illness,
you know exactly what I mean by sort of. Time is not something we
have a lot of. Enough said and that being said, having Lupus does
mean I am home most of the time. Home, you know. The place where all
my to do lists come to fruition.
So, as long as I'm not flaring, too
dizzy to walk or just generally feeling like crap, I have more time
to get things done than the average working person. Oops, that
doesn't sound very positive does it? On the other hand, it really is.
Lupus allows me to stay home and do all
the things that no one else in the house has time for. And when I am
feeling good, I'm more than happy to do those things. That's because
it sucks to feel bad and not have the option of getting things done
and it sucks to not be able to work. It sucks to feel like you are
not contributing to the household.
So Lupus, quite indirectly, hands me a
way to be a productive member of the household by forcing me to stay
home where all the action is. Sure, it's a bit of a trade off. Sure,
there are times when the bad days keep me down. But when those good
days come, I can really kick some ass and that feels damn good to
someone who can't work at a conventional job.
Because however soul sucking and
miserable that former job might have been, it was still nice to have
the security of that regular paycheck. LOL
So, thanks Lupus, for giving this
little family the gift of someone who can stay home and get things
done. Even if that someone is me and getting things done is a
challenge some days. It's all good and it keeps me from feeling like
I don't contribute.
Oh and thanks for forcing me into early
retirement too. After 35 years of working several jobs at a time to
support my kids and grand-kids, I needed a break like most people
cannot possibly imagine.
And another PS – Thanks to all my
family members, who are always sure to say how much they appreciate
what I do for them and who help me and comfort me whenever and
however they can.
I am so lucky!
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